Can we throw out the bath water without throwing out the baby?
Since the first week I've been subbing full-time in a fifth grade class. Honestly, it wasn't my first choice. Nor was it my second choice. I tried to obtain two other long-term subbing positions and at the last minute they both were changed.
The only one that was left open was fifth grade. It took me two days to decide to apply for the position. I've subbed fifth grade.
Horribly. With disaster. With tears.
Mine, by the way. Not theirs. They were unfazed.
Perhaps the universe decided I needed to learn something. Or it hates me. Or it's laughing at my expense.
I took this fifth grade position and like Bean reminded me. "Mom, you get paid even if you come home crying." For the first two weeks it was my mantra.
And then I started to figure out the 10-11 year old lingo. Their hormones. Their obsessions. It's an intense age and the wrong look from a student can send someone into the depths of despair. For the first few weeks their vocabulary was like listening to a string of Tik Tok videos all day long. In fact, some of the students were even writing in this annoying lingo. I was about ready to crash out. Did they even know English any more? We were heading straight for Ohio. Their writing scores were cooked.
Luckily, living with Baby Blueberry, who is 12 now, keeps me hip and cool by keeping me updated on the new Tik Tok trends and internet references. I quickly learned if I used words like, 'Ohio,' Sigma, Gucci,' I could get the students to stop using them because I made them uncool.
Whoops. My bad.
Now I wish I could say my students were very demure, very mindful - but they aren't. They're a rowdy and busy group who has experienced sub after sub over the last four years. Do you know what kinds of bad habits you develop as a student when you don't have a consistent teacher?
I have students who don't know their 3's on the multiplication chart. Do you know how difficult it is to learn two and three digit multiplication when you don't know your basics?
But get going. We have a schedule. Lesson 6.1 is on Monday and don't get behind. Students don't know- that's too bad. Keep going. Keep pushing.
Do we move to middle school? We're dumb, Ms. H. We're cooked. I got an F. I'm flipping burgers at Wendy's.
I'm working at McDonald's, says another student.
Is the focus starting to happen? Can I clarify things for you? These students will finish fifth grade feeling dumb and incapable.
But at least we did Lesson 6.2 on Tuesday, right?
Should the education system change?
Absolutely, yes.
Today, I had an admin come into my room to have my students write apology letters for a trip they took and I thought they did pretty good. Perfect, hell no. But good.
But here they were writing apology letters. I think the idea was so their behavior was even better next time.
But I had a student ask if he needed to write an apology letter because... he wasn't there.
He wasn't there.
And the answer was...yes. He needed to write an apology letter too.
I can imagine how I would write it. "Dear so-so, I'm sorry for my behavior on the trip I didn't take."
Can we change the education system without throwing out the baby?
We have to.
Our kids.
Our grandkids are depending on us.
But we need to start with an empty tub and figure out what should go in. Because my students aren't even ready for Lesson 6.3, and we're supposed to be on Lesson 6.5 by the end of the week.
Maybe we can memorize our 3's by then.